Here is my take on life as a pregnant college student.
I am now 16 weeks pregnant (I think) and 2 weeks from starting my last semester in college. Sometimes the two ideas seem so different that I feel like I'm leading a double life. On one hand I am preparing to be one of the busiest college students ever--18+ credits, work, theatre, music, homework, and maybe, somewhere in there, I'll even have a social life. On the other side of things, every day I look in the mirror it becomes more and more obvious that I'm not a typical college student--I'm a wife, and a mother. The dichotomy is overwhelming. I have nightmares about being at a dress rehearsal and being overtaken by a violent mood swing, or about missing an exam because of morning sickness. Logically, I know I shouldn't worry about things like this, because, as of yet, I haven't had serious issues with either problem (though maybe you should ask Ethan about my mood swings), but I don't know that pregnant women have ever been known for their logic. However, at the same time that I'm worrying about my growing body, shrinking mind, and the possible effect of this combination on my grades, I am also so overcome with joy and excitement at the idea of this new life that I am bringing into the world, that sometimes I think I could completely flunk out of school and it would have no effect on the true importance in my life.
When I hash it all out, here is the final truth I've come up with. God has blessed me with two of the desires of my heart, a college degree and a child with my own blood running through her veins. I don't have any right to ever worry or doubt.
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