It's been a while since I've posted again, so here's a quick update, mostly on my weight loss efforts. I'm really starting to see some progress. My end of January weigh-in had me down 5 lbs, and 6 weeks into 2013 I'm down a pants size! Its coming off slowly, but that's the point. I didn't want some crash diet that would have me down 20 lbs in a month, but in a way that's not sustainable. This has really been a lifestyle change for me, and this baby steps approach has made it easy. I've never felt hungry, or like I'm depriving myself. It's been more about eating the right things than about not letting myself eat. I have found that it's a LOT harder when I'm busy. We opened a play at Northwestern this weekend (Comedy of Errors. It's great. You should really come see it), and the school soup supper and open house and my niece's birthday and a whole bunch of other stuff landed on my calendar, and I found out that it's really hard to eat well on the run. Not to mention that there's no time for exercise with that schedule. But that's life, and you deal with a week of bad eating, and move on.
I had someone ask me if I'm going to post before and after pictures of my weight loss on this blog. My answer is no, I'm not even taking them. Here's why: my weight has developed into years of poor body image for me. Part of what I'm trying to do with my goals this year is to get myself to a place where I feel good about myself again, not just how I look, but more security in who I am as a person, as a mom, as an employee, whatever. I told Ethan yesterday that I looked in the mirror and felt good about myself. That hasn't happened in years. And whatever I look like by 2014, I don't want to have pictures left over, because I think instead of proving to myself how far I've come, they will just make me ashamed of where I was. How I look is not that important,but how I feel is. And I believe I can feel as good about myself in the body I have now as in the body I'm aiming for months or years from now. I want this to be about positive thinking and healthy living, not about the shape in the mirror.
2 comments:
Your my wife, which means I'm somewhat biased, but I think you're awesome. I'm proud of the work you're doing to get to a point that you feel good about yourself again.
I love you!
As another mom who is working towards a similar goal at the same time, I appreciate your candidness on your journey. It's not easy, but man it feels so much better! And that is definitely a large part of the goal for me too. Keep it up! :)
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